[The Other Side of the Story]

I'm not happy.....that's it.....

Baru seminggu lebih duduk berjauhan dengan mak, rindu sangat. Mak pun tak boleh dengar my voice over the phone, tak sempat cakap apa lagi pun dia dah nangis, huhuhu....Kalau mak nangis, aku pun automatic akan nangis....Aku tahu, mak sunyi sebab aku takde. Maklumlah, 2 years we stayed with my parents when I was studying @ UUM. Really missed the opportunity to spend more time with my parents. Bagi la masa banyak mana pun, aku still rasa tak cukup....Rindu mak sangat-sangat. Love you so much mum.

Ya Allah Ya Rabbi Ya Allah Ya Rabbi Ya Allah Ya Rabbi Ya Allah Ya Allah Ya Rabbi Ya Allah Ya Rabbi Ya Allah Ya Rabbi Ya Allah Ya Allah jangan Kau coba aku Melebihi batas mampu dan sanggupku Ya Allah bila memang Kau coba Aku percaya Kau sayang padaku Ya Allah Ya Rabbi Ya Allah Ya Rabbi Ya Allah Ya Rabbi Ya Allah Ya Allah lindungilah diriku Dari yang menjahati menzalimiku Ya Allah Kaulah Maha Segala Engkaulah pelindung hidup dan matiku Ya Allah Ya Rabbi Ya Allah Ya Rabbi Ya Allah Ya Rabbi Ya Allah Ya Allah Ya Rabbi Ya Allah Ya Rabbi Ya Allah Ya Rabbi Ya Allah Ya Allah jangan Kau coba aku Melebihi batas mampu dan sanggupku P/s: Minat plak dengar lagu nie. First time dengar - ring tones (sms) Junaidah, my office mate.

A lot of work to do.... I wish that I have more than 24-hours a day and don't feel tired at all.....could I?

I'm not emotionally stabled - that's the best phrase to desribe myself at this moment. Why? I also don't know. A bit sensitive lately, maybe....I've been trying to be myself again but I don't think that I'm being myself. Lack of self-confidence, this is not me.... Babe @ Sabrina, I missed sharing everything with you, lots and lots to be shared. I guess that if we meet someday, it's gonna be a very long chat - for sure 3 days and 2 nights is not enough ;oD p/s: Babe, I cried when I read your entry about angah....

Menghitung hari....kembali bekerja....My feelings? Entah la, semua perasaan ada la....Sibuk skang nie, tengah siapkan thesis writing (one more chapter to go), pastu tengah cari umah sewa, mana nak siapkan paper for conference @ Singapore....macam-macam ada....Pastu menghitung hari my life without my parents - 2 years we've been staying with them, huhuhu....So, banyak sungguh perubahan yang akan datang kan? 2 years ago - started my journey as one of UUM students. After 2 years - masih belum puas rasanya mengecapi nikmat sebagai seorang student. Masih banyak yang perlu dipelajari, masih banyak yang perlu dipertingkatkan. Belajar sampai bila-bila, jangan sesekali berhenti belajar kerana hidup ini sebenarnya suatu pelajaran dan pengajaran buat kita - tak kira la dalam bentuk apa sekalipun.... Menghitung hari menjelang 30 - February 2011. I'm getting older, I guess that I'm more matured than 10 years ago, hahaha....Dalam banyak perkara yang diingini, hanya tinggal satu yang mema...