[The Other Side of the Story]

Kenapa la ngantuk sangat nie....Really need a jumbo cup of latte (missed Gloria Jean's coffee yang kat Brissy)....

Best sangat dapat jumpa kawan2 setelah sekian lama tak jumpa. Ramadhan - bulan ibadah yang barakah & juga bulan yang mana silaturrahim kita eratkan. Tarikh: 12 September 2009 Venue: Bertam Golf Resort TQVM to penganjur - Mr. Faiz. Happening walaupun mostly yang attend adalah those yang berada kat utara. Hope that next time kita akan jumpa lagi, Insya-Allah....

Apa jadi dengan last nite??? Well, happy dapat jumpa Aini & Husai setelah sekian lama tak jumpa...So, macam-macam cerita la keluar....Aini is my best friend masa secondary school (soksek yang tercinta), Husai - kenal since darjah 2 & we went to the same boarding school....Kira kami sekolah sama-sama la, kelas jer lain-lain...Malu la kat my hubby, dia cuma tau wife dia nie nakal sikit tapi sebenarnya nakal banyak ;oD Best menyakat Aini & Husai, tanya macam mana la boleh tup-tup kahwin...Tu la yang dinamakan jodoh kan? Ada yang bercinta sakan tapi tak ke mana pun (aik, terkena batang hidung sendiri)...Best betul sembang malam tadi, mengimbas memori zaman persekolahan yang takkan dilupakan sampai bila-bila...Bila nak reunion kan? Jumpa ramai-ramai lagi macam-macam cerita keluar.... To Aini & Husai - thank you very much sebab belanja kami makan. Next round, our time plak treat korang key, insya-Allah. Hope that kita akan jumpa lagi... To my other half, my precious Chepok - ...

The day before that, I got fever. Kesian kat Balqis Humayrah, mak ngah dia tak dapat tolong banyak sangat masa majlis aqiqahnya. Tetiba rasa tak larat sangat. 7 January 2009 (kumpulan Gigi dari Indonesia ada lagu tajuk "11 Januari"), we went to Hospital Kulim for the scheduled appointment. This time, I was lucky that Dr. Goh attended my case (he is one of the specialist - it is not easy to get the opportunity to have a consultation with him). He asked me: Macam mana? I told him that there was no heart beat. He asked me who said that? Finally, he confirmed that there was no heart activity although the baby is already in 10 weeks. He said: Nak buat macam mana, belum ada rezeki lagi kali ini. Cuba lagi. He asked me to be admitted immediately (I'm ready that time, I brought everything that I need to be admitted again to Ward 10).... Some of the nurses in Ward 10 recognized me, because I was admitted to the same ward (different bed) last October. They said: Takpe, next time. A...

We've been trying for the past 3 and half years to have a kid. We've gone through several treatments, myself also undergone a minor surgery called 'laparoscopic surgery'. Alhamdulillah, for the first time in my life the UPT shows a positive sign and it was on the very early morning of the 5th of December 2008. My hubby was very happy at that time. We went to a clinic to confirm the pregnancy (scan) and yes, I'm pregnant. The follow-up appointment with specialist was scheduled on the 17th of December 2008. At that time, the baby was fine & it was already 6 weeks. The doctor asked me to come & scan the baby again on the following week, because he needs to check & confirm on my baby heart beat. And 24th of December 2008 was a nightmare for us. The baby heart beat cannot be detected and the doctor felt that this is abnormal. I've been given two options at that time: to do D&C - abort the baby or another two weeks time to rescan & see how's it...

Alhamdulillah, hari nie dah masuk hari ketiga bagi tahun 1430H. Tomorrow, 2009 will begin....Another new year, thank you Allah s.w.t. kerana masih diberi kesempatan untuk terus hidup di bumi-Nya.... Tahun baru, azam baru....Banyak lagi yang masih belum dicapai dalam hidup ini, semoga masih ada peluang untuk memperbaiki diri ini dari semasa ke semasa....Azam? Panjang sangat listnya (do I have the list?)....Anyway, mestilah yang baik2 jer diimpikan kan? ;oD To all my friends, masih belum terlewat untuk wish Selamat Tahun Baru Islam, awal Muharram 1430H & Happy New Year 2009. Selamat tinggal 2008 & kenangan yang agak mendukacitakan (for me la) and thanks for the memories (I got sweet memories too - it's a mixed feelings & there were lots of unexpected thing that happened & I experienced in 2008).... The most important thing is "La Tahzan" - don't be sad, tak kira la apapun yang bakal terjadi since semua itu adalah ketentuan-Nya.... Welcome 2009 - a new ch...

Posing, posing sakan @ Park Royal Hotel Penang....

Bergetar jiwa di persada bercahaya Pertemuan harapan pertama kalinya Bergetar jiwa menghadapi mimpi-mimpi Sukar dipercaya pintunya terbuka Di sini jua memori tercipta Walau seketika terjalin kasih kita Mungkin di sini kita kan terpisah Kenangan bersama tiada kulupa Mengalun suara sesuri bisikan hati Seiringan mencari haluan berseni Bergetar jiwa menghadapi mimpi-mimpi Tiada pun terduga pintunya terbuka Di sini jua memori tercipta Walau seketika terjalin kasih kita Mungkin di sini kita kan terpisah Kenangan bersama tiada kulupa Yang terpahit jua termanis Semuanya bagiku terindah Kuingati buat selama-lamanya Di sini jua memori tercipta Walau seketika terjalin kasih kita Mungkin di sini kita kan terpisah Kenangan bersama tiada kulupa Mungkin di sini kita kan terpisah Kenangan bersama Mungkin di sini kita kan terpisah Kenangan bersama tiada kulupa Lagu nie dari Shila OIAM. Entah kenapa tetiba tersuka kat lagu nie....Melayan perasaan, teringat memor...

I just wanna share my difficuty to find articles related to my study from the online library - particularly at universities in Malaysia. Not to mention that the server is very slow, not all of the articles are available in fulltext because most of the libraries did not have full access to the resources due to the subscription package they chose. In return, what we can access is only the abstract of the articles. Honestly speaking, this is one of the pitfalls of doing PhD in Malaysia. I hardly face this kind of problem when I was studying at Australia - everything you can get online, and it is very fast....I know the the subscription fees of online databases are very expensive, but it is very important for our country to improve on this in order to attract more foreign students to study here, to enroll in a research-based programs at local universities in Malaysia. However, I'm glad to have the opportunity to resume my study here in my own country after the "tragic incident...

Beijing 2008 reminds me of this picture.... I met her (Jessica Schipper) at Brisbane International Motor Show 2008. Frankly speaking, I did not know her at all, I just went to the booth because there were lots of people queuing to get her signature. And I was lucky to have one too.... Arrrggghhhh, kenangan yang terindah. Memori itu datang kembali. Brisbane, I missed my life back there.... *sigh*